A joyfully chaotic memoir about what we gain by embracing our shameful moments, from award-winning comedian and TV writer Pax Assadi. What do we lose by hiding our shame, and what do we gain by sharing it? From herding ducks in West Auckland to catastrophic culture shock in Pakistan, to being catfished, conned, heartbroken and humbled. In this hilarious and painfully honest memoir, Pax retraces his story by interrogating the memories he's tried to keep in the dark.