From the age of eight Candice Derman locked away her secret and lived two lives. The darkness spread but she learned how to live with it. She grew up never knowing if she would ever be able to love all of herself. She became a normal, not normal child and her secret lay hidden inside her for many years. One day it escaped and she became hungry to find happiness. “Abuse is like an unnatural disaster: everything that is lost must be re-built and I have had to re-build all of me. This book is part of that journey and is the story I thought I would never tell,” says Derman. A deeply moving true story of pain, courage and love.